This Hits a Little too Close to Home
It has been a while since I’ve posted, but I haven’t had many problems lately, things have been going fine since I had told him my “curse”. he said that if we are to break up, it would have to be a bigger issue than that, so it wasnt a issue for him. So technically and officially, I have a boyfriend. But, this is not the reason I am writing today.
His uncle just died. He died of the same disease I would be most likely to get and the type of cancer I am most susceptible to get – liver cancer. this hits a little close to home. I mean, he had been talking to me about it, and we all knew that his uncle would pass away sooner or later, because there was no cure. I had never consciously thought about it. Because, what’s the use? it would only add more worries to my already stressed life.
This event shows me that this disease is real, he was only around 47, about my parents’ age. young. I mean while talking to him online, I could think of nothing but what I could do to make things easier for him. (this is nothing to do with that he is important in my life, it has to do with the fact that someone in his life had just passed away and I can’t comfort anyone else, because they dont know me). But now that I’m not talking to him anymore, this idea is slowly starting to sink in.
Maybe I should start taking better care of myself huh? when will I ever learn? not just about this, but pretty much all of life’s lessons, I’m still as naive as ever. It’s so hard these days, to take good care of yourself. school, work, and life in general drags you down. What can I do but live everyday as well as I can? and just hope that in the next phase of my life – the phase after college – that I will be able to take better care of myself.
Who knows what will happen? Do we really have control over our own destinies?
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