Valentine’s Day
Valentine’s Day, a day singles lament about being single…
This year, I had thought that I would just take this day and enjoy the singledom and just be myself, without all the overanalyzing and drama about the what ifs of a relationship.
After spending last night out with someone I had just met two weeks ago, I realized that I wouldn’t have to do that, and this morning, I woke up an hour before my alarm, with a large smile on my face. I wasnt going to be bitter about V-day or anything, but who wouldnt prefer to spend it with someone special compared to the alternative. And by special I mean that he is extra nice, not special as in I could spend the rest of my life with him kind of way. Only time will tell about that.
Today, V-day, we had made plans for the evening already, so I decided to spend some quality time in the early afternoon enjoying the beauty of Chinese Lit in the library. And now the reason for my blogging…
I received an unexpected call from a friend, thinking he wanted to talk about something. However, when I asked whats up, he said asked me if I wanted to go for a movie. Of course, I told him I had plans already. But this distracted me so that I couldnt concentrate on the rest of my work and had to record this incident.
Noone should be spending this day alone, American culture have drilled this thought into our heads. Of course I wouldnt have cared, I had work to keep my occupied, but obviously I am much happier now that something is going on tonight.
However, I am in conflict right now because…so did he ask me to the movies because I am a friend to him and he didn’t want to spend tonight alone and seeks the company of a friend? Or is he starting to think that possibly we could be more than that, now that there is someone else?
I know I can’t ever just shoot these questions at him, but I still cant help being confused. I can only see him as a friend so…it shouldnt confuse me, but it does because I don’t like to hurt people…unfortunately, I think that’s a part of the list of life’s lessons I must learn to get used to…
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