An update of where my life is…
Most Asians have their lives set. They know they want to go into med school, be a doctor, marry someone successful, have the kind of life that everyone else dreams of.
Less than three years ago, I was like that. I was a Chemistry/Premed major, had a boyfriend, I thought I was set. Little did I know, that was the beginning of college, that was when my life had barely even started. My life….is only just starting now. Now…is when I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life. I changed my major 2 years ago, to something more flexible in future choices: Economics and International Relations, and couldn’t be any happier with it. I finally broke up with him, as you know from my previous blogs, officially 7 months ago, and 2 months ago, I finally gave up trying to get back with him and realized that it was the best for both of us.
The unknown is what thrills me. I got bored with the same things and the set futures. I had even tried to break up with him, several times while we were together. But during the later part of our relationship, it was him who actually ended it, of course, due to another aspect of my “self-discovery”. Now… flirting with guys, knowing that no harm can come out of it, knowing that they are interested in getting to know me better, knowing that at any moment, I have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA who may come my way. 
That’s the thrill of being single.
As far as jobs go, I’m looking to get into real estate for some side income, as mentioned in my previous blogs. Although…ok here’s the reason for my blogging today. My alarm woke me at 9am, I was dead tired and couldn’t make it to my training appt and…there’s a story to this: The night before last, xmas eve, I worked at a Jewish Mikveh (hate the reminders of the ex, but need the money) and right after that, at 4pm, I left for my uncle’s restaurant to work. Didn’t eat anything, therefore, I was hungry…went to Dunkin Donuts, bought a bagel and coffee, knowing that I would never be able to finish the coffee. At 10pm, xmas eve, I was eating dinner and drank that coffee, and that night, I couldn’t sleep….until 5am, and woke up at 9am…so today, even though I went to sleep at a normal time, I was dead tired, and couldnt make it out of the house. I’m still tired right now, but had to blog about how lucrative my plans have been lately.
ummm….I’m graduating in 1 semester, and I have NO IDEA where I’m going to be after graduation…a few months ago, I was pretty set on wanting to be a management consultant, I lost count of the number of consulting firms I’ve applied to: McKinsey, Deloitte, Bain…you name it…Come mid December, I realized that I needed to be real, with my GPA, my resume probably ended up in the trash can of ALL of the recruiters, although they gave me a nicer reply: “due to the current condition of the economy….blah blah.” Listen, lady, or guy, I know my qualifications are not good enough to be a consultant, just like it wasn’t good enough for MIT 4 years ago…but…never hurts to try, i don’t take rejections personally.
Who cares? I did, I still kind of do, but I’m not waiting around for a reply that will never come…..
Moving on….to…the UNKNOWN
We will see where life takes me in terms of a full-time job and relationships after graduation.
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